Timeframe of Worry

She left almost 5 hours ago. We haven't known this guy for long. Should I worry at 2 am? 3? 4? What if something happens? Does that make me partially responsible? What if something really did happen? How could I live with that? She won't answer, won't respond.. What if she does something she regrets? Should I call again? Am I being paranoid? Would she do this for me? Yes. Would she be worried? Yes. What if it's as simple as she fell asleep on accident or purpose with him? Is she thinking with her head or with his? She should be back now. I can't sleep. I know where he lives.. it's almost 4. Should I go be the hero? No. But I worry. I think she should be back by now and she isn't and what happens if she doesn't come back? He seems like such a nice guy, I'm almost sure she's fine. Almost. What if she isn't? What happens then? I've watched the clock since 1. She was worried the night I didn't come home until 4. Why wouldn't she just simply say, "take me home now, please?" I wonder where she is... She needs sleep. She has work in the morning. I can sleep in but she has to be to work.. Why isn't she back yet? This is a wrinkle in our normal schedule. It's almost 4 am on a Wednesday morning and she's STILL not back.... the minutes seem to elongate, stretching out the possibilities. Where the hell is she? I'm scared to go to bed in case she never comes home but concerned about staying up for fear that I'll get bad news. Her parents would be very disappointed. Where the hell is she? 3:53 and still no sign. Where would they be now? Arizona? Mexico? Heaven? Hell? She said she likes him, but how much? Enough to throw away her life? Enough to fall asleep in his arms tonight? Enough to stay out until at least 4 in the damn morning? Pop a few more Tums. 3:54. Where the hell is she?